It started out with small, insignificant things here and there

Then my favorite records started disappearing, one by one

I asked him if he’d seen them, his wily answer “nope, I swear”

Then items around the house; that made things seem undone

Shivers run up my spine as I feel the cold air.
The moonlight gleams, cascading my curves.
Dressed in nakedness, I lay before you.
My chest synchronized with rapid breaths
...of wanting you.

Passion and desire is all I have to offer.

I sit and wait as Father Winter comes to greet Mother Earth,

And I watch the snow fall lightly outside my window perch.

The branches that sway with leaves,

Will soon hold their weight in snow.

The animals that usually come out to eat,

Now will surely go.

The cool autumn air will give way to,

I Hope that I die quickly,

With no where else to run.

 I also hope I'm all alone,

To see just who would come.

I bet nobody would care,

About the suffering and the pain.

They would all imagine,

The things they were to gain.

If in my will I left them,

A shiny diamond ring,

I do,

I did,

I left.

Can you,

Forgive,

My Wreck.

I told you,

I’d be Done,

If you sought,

That show of One.

Now I am all alone,

Can’t look past all the moves,

And all the suffering,

I have Done.

Dreams of you still appear,

I'm experimenting with writing drama... or something like that, so, not really sure where this will go, just popped into my head. I am curious about your opinion. 

Wake me

When you return, for you my flesh burns and my blood runs hot

Wake me

From my fitful sleep, with jaded desire I’m twisted and wrought

Wake me

From the forsaken place you left my broken body long ago

**Note this is very, very dark!**

When I'm around you

I get the feeling that I know you

We can talk till we smile and lock eyes

Getting out of touch with time

While we are reading each other from the inside

I feel comfortable when I'm around you

I wanna dive in and put my lips on your lips

Warm sensation tingling my mind and my penis

Though I’ve loved large and small,
I never had to persevere at all.
Why do I always go for the one,
Whom stares me in the eyes,
And shows me all of my lies.

I took a wrong turn somewhere

I’m not quite sure where, but I know I’m not supposed to be here

There is a place I was destined to be

A life, a path, a reality, that was intended to be mine

I must have taken the wrong job

Perhaps I kissed the wrong man

Maybe it was as simple as missing a bus

Now here I am

I can sense you, I know you're there. You don’t have to hide, because I know you're there. Please don’t wait, until I close my eyes. Please don’t wait, because I know your there. You're not defined. You live in darkness. You dwell in the shadow of my fears. Step out of the shadows and form yourself. Step out of the shadows and show yourself.

Can we feel anything if it's not pain?

We hurt each other just to stay sane

Repeating the same words, reliving the same fight

Never any resolution, the wrong feels so right

Warped like a funhouse mirror, the world feels upside down

Is this love or hate? It's choking me; I swear I'm going to drown

Do not lie to me.
You are supposed to care, right?
I know you do. You do exactly as you should.
You care. So much. I know this.
But do not stand there and lie to me.

"You are so pretty."
"You are beautiful."
Stop.
Stop it now.
Quit lying to me.

No one ever told me what to do when I began to hate.
Hate myself. Hate everyone else.
This is my punishment.
I am so sorry, but I will not be stopped.

No one told me how to handle love.
Lots of love.
Mom. Dad. Brother. Friends. Boyfriend.
You all love me.
So I won't let you see.
But I will not stop.

I have a voice. The voice, so familiar, sometime deafeningly loud, other times, barely audible; whispering the words.

This voice clutches onto my verses, molding them like clay, but still they’re just beautiful ghosts.

This voice sometimes screams and howls with all the rage of the gravely wronged. It rattles the far corners of my soul.

Put it away now.
I keep lying to you somehow..
I know it is hard for you
But it is for me too.
You are supposed to see through my facade.
I find it quite odd
I thought you were done with that, After the overdose.

Even as a small child I always hated my reflection.
I was striving for perfection!
Never getting anywhere though really began to sting.
Painful thing after thing.
I wish I could wake up and it all be a fading nightmare..
When in public it feels like they all stare.
Stare at me because I am ugly.

It swallows me, and I can't breathe.
I am screaming and crying.
Help, help, help me. Please I beg of you. Help me.
Heart breaking silence flowing in my ears.
No one here but me.
I don't ask of much. No not at all.
Just please don't leave me alone.
Why you ask?

“Ridiculous”, he said
And punched me with a twist:
“One should forget the rules
Or use them for his best.
I say I do, I say I don’t,
Because it serves my goal.
But don’t expect me to be frank,
That would exceed my role.”

An insidious, pervasive spread of need

The devious rival that's spread his seed

A perpetual itch that you cannot scratch

Fierce desire that you chase but never catch

The opponent's strategy is cunning for sure

He knows full well; there is no known cure

Our foe is so powerful, the battle seems lost

Not the breadth of this world,
Your weary breath as you went,
Or the blue wall between us will pen this passion.

Lying in wraps and down,
Love wafting from my body,
A golden mist freed of its prison by dawn.

The world I know
Is in an unstable condition,
We’ve come a long way,
And showed so much ambition.
But we always forgot that
There is still a job called;
A Mortician.

My chest may be leather bound.
I’ve seen a lot of jazz,
And also, been around.
Our legs were unfortunately bound,
And my strength,
Just might need another Round…
Of Cold Adult Beverages.